I finished out the junior high! It was a huge relief. The junior high was such a test for me, I had hives everyday, lost all my confidence, and felt like I was drowning in a new sea of students. I know that the experience was one of learning and of course value but at the time I was just lost. I wasn't a "teacher" here, the kids had bigger issues, and there was no way for me to overcome my position to them because I was leaving just as soon as I had learned their names. Ultimately I think DESE made the poor choice here in changing the amount of time at our placements and I feel like if I had more time I could have had a more positive experience.
Graduation came so quickly like I blinked and it was over. I literally felt like I was in a time warp that Saturday. It was a wonderful feeling to know that I had worked very hard and reached my goal.
My family and friends celebrated with me at an after graduation lunch. I just soaked it all in because I REALLY have great friends and family and I love to spend time with them.
Since graduation there have been some sleepless nights, some tears, and a lot of cleaning. I really felt like I would graduate my life with fall together and I would feel this completeness but actually I was tired, wondering how I would keep my self occupied, and lost. I have spent a lot of time self reflecting and talking it out with my loved ones and I have come to realize I met my first major goal in life so it's time to set a new one. I can't slow down because time is still ticking by and I have many more things ahead of me like my wedding, finding my first job, and more!
So it's time for this blog to take a new direction as well as my life towards the wedding! We have like half a year and I really need to kick it into high gear. Starting now...literally I am at my mom's with planner in hand!!
(Sorry for all the rhyming me and Lexi have been reading a ton of rhyming books.)
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